Sunday, April 13, 2008

the word.

well, ok.

so i just woke up from a nap. and this isn't the beginning of some obnoxiously metaphorical post, either - i literally just crawled off the couch after dozing for a few hours in front of the white sox game. it was a good nap. very relaxing.

and that is what i'm going for lately. relaxing. all this Getting Things Done and whatnot? wonderfully useful for a lot of people, but for me, right now? all i can think about when i hear the word "productivity" i need a fucking break from productivity, actually - i need a break from pushing myself. i need this breathing room. i need to keep working on learning how to cool it with the mental to-do lists and the worry and the anxiety and the self-propelled guilt trips.

(all right, who am i kidding, i'll never give up my mental to-do lists. but really - they need far fewer items.)

however, i have also learned over the past three months, i can really benefit from having this little outlet for putting down thoughts and opinions, for sorting it out, for connecting with people. i love how this blog has put me in touch with people that i never would have otherwise known, and how it makes me feel tapped into so many different streams and types of thought. i think that is an incredibly enriching thing. the trick, for me, is to learn how to enjoy that without feeling weirdly beholden to it - without again finding myself in a place where i'm posting because i feel like i "have to" - because really, that is some dumbass bullshit nonsense. right? right.

so, my plan is this: blog. when i want to.

(i wish i could fully explain why such a simple, self-evident idea proves to be such a challenge for me. but it would take hours of our lives that none of us could then get back, so i'm gonna refrain from even trying!)

if you've got rss, well, keep me on your feeds - i'll be popping up every now and again. if you don't, well - i hope you don't forget about me, because i'll be around. maybe once a week, maybe once a month, maybe three times in one day - i have no idea, and i'm doing my damnedest to learn to like it that way.


Toast said...


(Go blogger. It's ya birthday. We gon' party like it's ya birthday.)

Hey, did I mention that KATE is back?!

Welcome back. You were missed. :-)

East Coast Teacher said...

Glad to see you blogging again. Regardless of how often you post.

Now, go enjoy the Sox beat up the Yankees!

Cinnamon said...

I'm doing the happy dance. I'm doing the happy dance. You know what a party needs? Red wine! I'm drinking one in your name tonight, chica!

Thanks for returning. The place hasn't been the same without you.

elizalou said...

Hurray! I've got you on RSS (sounds kind of stalkerish, but it's not) and I actually clicked through to your site last week to make sure there wasn't anything wrong with my feed.

Welcome back!

kate.d. said...

thanks, peeps :)

(and elizalou, i am a new convert to RSS myself! dunno why i lived without it for so long, now that i have it...)

Veronica said...

woo! I'm so having a martini tomorrow night for ya. I know, I's a sacrifice, but anything for ya sister.

Jared Goralnick said...

Welcome back to the dark side, Kate! We love you and look forward to your daily, er, sporadic posts :-)

Stacey said...

Glad to have you back. :)