this is bad. very bad.

it is 2:28 pm on tuesday, october 17th, 2006. i just wanted to document the precise moment at which i realized that i've become an unemployed person.

i have, of course, been without an actual job for a little over three weeks. but that's not what i'm talking about. i don't mean that i've become unemployed, but that i've become that unemployed person.

- the one that doesn't bother conditioning her hair.
- the one that wears slippers more often than regular shoes.
- the one for whom "going to the grocery store" constitutes the biggest activity of the day.
- the one that looks forward to 4:00, because that's when oprah is on.
- the one who bought a pint of ben & jerry's ice cream at the store today with the express purpose of eating it from the carton, while under a blanket, while watching oprah.

i really, seriously, for-real-serious have thoughts like "this would be a good snack to have during oprah." my shame is boundless.

i am waiting to hear back from three different non-profits about three different jobs, for each of which i've interviewed at least twice. six interviews. as of 2:36 pm, zero phone calls.

for the love of god (and waistlines, and brain cells), i need to hear back from somebody.